Determined To Succeed

Day eighty-nine.

Well, my friends. As you well know, in weight loss we always seem to have good news and bad news. As we start this new weekend I, myself,  have good news and bad news. The bad news (which I always like to start with first) is that I am feeling a bit run down today. I am bloody tired and sleepy. The good news is that I am tired and sleepy because I dragged my sorry ass to the gym last night and got good and sweaty before coming home to have some wonderfully reheated leftovers. Meaning, I ate well and light again and today have more martial arts training to do with Sensei Doug. So, despite my waning energy levels today is a great, great day.

After my breakfast of cinnamon raisin toast and snack featuring a delicious pear I had a lunch that wasn’t horrible but wasn’t great, either, so there was good news/bad news with that, too. On the bad news side, I had about 10 or so fishsticks and they were frozen, deep-fried and I ate them with a smattering of cocktail sauce. The good news was that I didn’t have bread with them (I figured the breading was enough), that they were fish and I had just one diet soda (a refreshing Diet 7-Up) to go with them. For dinner, again after my workout, I had my remaining cinnamon/chipotle porkchop and apple salsa, some garlic mashed potatoes and peas with mushrooms. Very tasty stuff, indeed.

Of course, there’s more bad news, though…I had a few remnants of Halloween candy as a “treat,” eating several damned delicious Snickers bite-sized candies. Grrrrrr. I also had two too many Diet 7-Ups. Oh well, that was last night.

Today, I started the day by having a piece of rye toast, an egg, one slice of cheese and one turkey sausage pattie. It was awesome. Also, just to “keep it real” I did have yet another Diet 7-Up to wash it down (bad Bill, bad Bill). But, on the good side, I do have another session with Sensei Doug today and my weight is down. It may be by a few ounces but I will definitely take it. Today I am at 239.9 and loving every bit (and ounce) of it.

As the weekend hits (again!) I keep reminding myself not to freak out, that I can control what I eat and do and not automatically re-gain weight. That is the good side. Also on the good side is my ability to drag my sorry ass to the gym and sweat some more so I can keep my metabolism up and my body burning that stupid fat. The bad side is that I do have an event to go to tomorrow night which, I’m sure, will be filled with yummy (and very portable) food stuffs. I just have to take a deep breath and remember not to lose my resolve…

…and keep my inner eye on the prize, that Calvin Klein suit.

I know I keep bringing that up a lot lately but I need to for my sake. You know how it is…you have a goal and you want to remain true to that goal. I am trying to do just that because it will not only be a victory for my health and continued well-being but also a great birthday present to me for turning 40. Until then, I will just take the bad with the good and the good with the bad and, at the end of the day, pray the bad is outweighed by the good.

Have a great weekend everyone and I will write you on Monday. Cheers!