Determined To Succeed

Day eighty-five.

I do not know about many of you out there but I love Halloween. It’s cool to see kids dress up in way cooler costumes than I had growing up (although there was nothing wrong with my plastic Spider-Man, Batman or Darth Vader out-of-the-box costumes my mom bought). As an adult there are two things I love best about the holiday – the horror movies and the candy. Every movie from “Halloween” (still my favorite of all time) to “Wrong Turn” is fun to watch, especially this time of year. Scary movies are just awesome. They take you on such a wild ride for a couple of hours and its thrilling. Then, you get to buy candy. Lots of bags of candy to hand out to kids (although I have a motto – no costume, no candy). Yeah, Halloween candy, those sweet little innocent, bite-sized morsels (the ones we’re convinced have no calories because they’re so small) are like horror movies. They take you on a wonderful and delicious wild ride…that is until you come back down and reality hits you like a punch in the face.

Dudes, I got on the scale today and freaked out. I am up two-and-a-half pounds! I am at 241.3! Suck!!!!! I absolutely know it has to do with two things – eating waaaaaaaaay too much spaghetti and sauce yesterday for dinner and that damned Halloween candy, stupid little delicious bite-sized morsels of evil.

As I sit and watch the birds outside my window I am thankful for two things – stretchy elastic-waist pants and second chances. After dinner last night I put on a pair of sweatpants and it felt good. But that was simultaneously bad, especially since I tried on a pair of pants yesterday that should have fit but didn’t. Ugh! Whoever invented elastic waist pants ought to be rewarded and shot all at the same time. Curse them (she/he)! However, after a good hearty dinner I was comfy all curled up watching the afore-mentioned “Halloween” (the original 1978 version starring Jamie Lee Curtis and not the Rob Zombie remake – excuse me, re-imagining). It also was cool having a few of the leftover candy treats – as horrible as they are for you – because I am human and I will still eat what I want. I just didn’t think it would be that bad.

Again, curse them!

So I am am also happy for second chances again today. Since I have been healthier and happier these days I have been eating more. However, today is November 1 and I am gonna head to the gym today to sweat off these damned two-and-a-half pounds to get myself back on track. I also am gonna start keeping a food diary of my own to log what I eat until I get back to 225.  I am gonna make the most of the second chances on this bright new day.

Is today the end of the world? No. I know I will work off this weight (again!) and will do better. I just have to stop being as stupid as the people featured in those horror movies I love so very much. Their ability to stop running when they think the killer is dead, to drop the knife/gun/baseball bat/whatever when they think it’s safe, their ability to say “I’ll be right back. I’ll be O.K.” before going into a dark, closed-in space all by themselves where you know the killer is lurking, and more are all reasons there are sequels to horror movies. In other words, being stupid brings about a bad result, and I should keep that in mind especially around this time of year.

Halloween may be over for 2010, but unlike the freaking “Saw” movies I do not want to be in this place with my weight again next year, creating a weight loss sequel for myself that is scarier than this original.

PS: I had two pieces of lightly-buttered raisin toast for breakfast and will have a chicken dish tonight. Hopefully that plus my exercise will keep that stupid boogeyman away.