Determined To Succeed

Happy Sunday, my friends. It’s rainy here in southern New Jersey and the day is slooooooly getting going (as lazy, rainy Sundays tend to do). I am feeling much better than I did on Friday, first and foremost because I had more sleep (per chance to dream). And more sleep equals more strength to handle stuff, like bitching again to the Honda service guy about setting expectations. If the idiot I spoke to on Thursday had told me there was a chance I’d spend that kind of money I wouldn’t have felt so blind-sided and kicked in the gut. At least I shamed Honda into giving me a $50 coupon off one of the belt-thingies. It didn’t make much of a difference but it helped.

I also feel better because I wanted to feel better. I am moving away from the crap. I knew I wasn’t going to let the circumstances and feelings of Friday ruin my Saturday, especially when it came to eating. Sure, I ended up having Chinese food for dinner (I needed it especially after actually handing over the credit “dread-it” card to pay for said automotive services) but I took care, exercised during the day, ate a sensible lunch, watched my portions, drank diet soda (Coke Cherry Zero rocks) and had it on smarter terms – my terms. I am still at 237.5 today and holding, which is great. And like Sundays are for so many people, today is catch-up day for me for basic mechanics, all puns intended, like laundry, groceries, etc., and also for exercise and weight loss planning for the new week.

There are so many times when we feel nervous, anxious, sad, weird, etc., especially getting ready to start a new week. There might be a job interview that doesn’t feel quite right, family members that put you down when they shouldn’t or money worries that have you wondering about how to even pay bills (like me, when I least expected to drop $2K on a car and had to re-re-adjust finances to hope things settle OK). But it is OK. We all need help getting our minds back in order even if there is doubt about the direction in which we’re headed. At least we are moving away from the crap.

Like the little voice inside my head that wonderfully reminds me we all must still control that which we can control especially when it comes to eating and weight loss. “Don’t stress about the eating. You know what you’re doing. And it’s ok to say ‘I’m going to eat this because I know the consequences,’” while, at the same time, recognizing what I was doing and why. I set the expectation for myself. I had a crap-tastic day and I ate comfort food. But life goes on, and so must we all. See? I am moving away from the crap.

As we all get ready for the start of another week we need to harness these voices in our heads for ourselves and about ourselves. These will help us just keep going. You’ll do great, especially knowing you are moving further and further away from the bad things in life – the crap. Moving away from that mental “ick” makes me healthier and better, and when you move away from your mental “ick” it helps. Believe me it does.

I had many people reach out to me yesterday over this strange, futuristic light box called a computer and offer me wonderful and kind words to help me feel better. It did. And while the hugs and thoughts may be virtual, they still helped so, so much move away from the crap of Friday. I hope as we get ready to start a new week full of new stuff and possibilities I can offer that same virtual hug back. We are all in this together, going through it all at the same time in our own funky ways. And you are never alone, especially when it comes to losing weight while dealing with all this “ick.”