Determined To Succeed

OK, here’s a shameless plug for another part of the website. I just posted my brand new review of the Sandra Bullock movie “The Blind Side.”

As I was doing my five miles on the elliptical this morning I was thinking about that story. How incredibly lucky Michael Oher was to have found the Tuohy’s who gave him the chance he needed to be more of than he knew he actually was instead of the man that everyone saw (and about whom they made judgments).

I know exactly what that feels like and it is a truly crappy feeling. Do you know how crappy it is to walk down the street and have people look at you like less than a human being just because you are overweight? It sucks. Do you know what it’s like to be looked at getting on a plane and seeing the expressions of people already sitting there and knowing they are thinking “Oh God, please don’t let that behemoth sit next to me.” Or worst of all, to go out to eat and see people passing judgment in restaurants as you order knowing they are wondering if you’ve ordered one of everything.

To all of those people in this world, screw you!!! I was always more than what you saw I was always crying so hard on the inside (and out) because of the things you said, how you looked and how you reacted to me. Just because I was larger doesn’t mean I didn’t have feelings and didn’t mean I didn’t WANT to lose weight. It’s juts that now I’ve found my Tuohy family in hard work, exercise and eating better (and not so much).

You see, sometimes it takes a chance meeting, instance, happening or occurrence to start a person on their journey. For me, it was my health, hurting joints and crushed ego (after seeing that photo of me in the shark tunnel). That’s what snapped me out of it and set me on my path to lose 175lbs.

If there is one thing that movies like “The Blind Side” are good for it’s that, for at least a while, people think past themselves and their stupid prejudices to see the potential resting in so many of us. And while I am not saying people don’t go back to being judgmental it’s nice when people think we’re more than our weight shows us to be.

We are beautiful. We are strong. We have feelings. We cry. We also want to lose weight, we just don’t know how sometimes. So hold your tongues, thoughts and feelings and keep them to yourself. Besides the fact I’m sure you have faults of your own about which you’re not proud and don’t want brought to the forefront we are sick and f&^%$#g tired of hearing the following how big we are. We know that, dips&$t!

We just need you to do one of two things: Get out of our way and keep that negativity to yourself or offer your hand in friendship and support as we begin or continue our weight loss journey.