Determined To Succeed

Hello my friends. I promised you that I would report all, good and bad, on my weight loss journey. Well, here is the truth. I have slipped. I have slipped in what I ate last night.And it is no one’s fault but my own.

Last night I ate a HUGE order of egg foo young and it was wrong. So wrong. And you are probably saying to yourself “so what.” Let me tell you that I feel like a slug today because of it.

Have you ever eaten so much that you feel like you have a hangover. You feel lethargic and gross, and heavier – like it’s a struggle just to move. Well, that’s what that egg foo young did to me. I feel that brown gravy goo running through my veins like a thickened blood. I have always told you that I eat what I want on this weight loss journey, but last night I ate WAAAAAAAY too much of it.

What I should have done is eaten half of it, and put the other half in the fridge for today’s lunch or din din. But it is deeper than that. I ordered Chinese because I couldn’t think of something better. I wasn’t even really hungry. It was one of those auto-pilot times when programming took over common sense and I went to one of my kryptonites. I could have even gone to the gym to work out to build up more of an appetite. ARGH! I am so mad at myself.

What the hell was I thinking?

If I wasn’t really hungry I should have just gotten up and made soup, or a Lean Cuisine, or gotten myself a piece of fruit instead of blowing God knows how many calories on two egg patties that look more like cow patties covered in a gravy that congeals when left in the fridge.

Eeeew!

So what did this slug do today? Totally got my butt out of bed and worked out. I did what came to six miles on my elliptical (at least my machine says it’s six miles), lifted weights and then hit the steam room (always a relaxing way to end a workout). THAT made me feel better. Those approximately 600 calories I burned this morning (probably half of what I consumed) made me feel better because there is no excuse for the sheer volume of what I ate.

I simply must lose this last three or so pounds. As Val Kilmer said in Real Genius “It is a moral imperative.” So just know I’m with you guys when we stumble, too. I so am. And would you even believe I ate this monstrosity watching “THE BIGGEST LOSER?”

But I did get something very cool today. I got an e-mail from a wonderful guy named Jeff who’s following my blog to help motivate himself to lose that stubborn 10-15 lbs. Dude, you totally will lose that weight, my friend. You will. And so will I. We all will.

So thank you, Jeff, for helping me remember I need to get back up when I stumble. It’s OK. That I just need to keep walking hard to stay true to the journey for us all. And thank you to all the people in my life who also continue to support me, wish me well and say to me “you need to exercise more,” “you’re doing great” and “I am so proud of you” when I need to hear it.

I absolutely assure you, I will not be a slug today!